someone once told me i was beautiful, then vanity took over my life.

Self image...

Christmas is nearly here and going out and about is becoming a mission for me, I have recently found out that I have a real need at the moment to present myself as being a little more... glam,  I guess. I used to feel comfortable going out to the shops in leggins and a hoodie, my hair up in a mess and no make-up on.

For some reason I feel now I have to make this effort to impress people and myself in what I look like, I will refuse to leave the house unless I feel that my cloths look fairly good and I have gone through the rigorous task of applying the make-up ad doing my hair. 

For the last two weeks my boyfriend is the only person who has seen me with no make up on at all and just a hoodie and pj shorts. From the impression I get I feel that he prefers me with no make-up on but my subcontious self can not stand for believing that this is so, therefor I layer up the makeup and get ready for my day. I do not find that wearing the makeup makes me feel more comfortable but I do feel more outgoing and confident.


hmmm. dear santa, please may i have me back for christmas, or is this me? x