Negativity inside myself.
People around me always say that me being happy makes them happy and in my head I put on a happy front to allow people around me to feel that i am happy which in turn makes them happy.
i have been with my partner over 2 years now and i feel that making changes is a good idea, people say we're becoming comfortable around each other; things have happened to me since my last post and i feel that inside i need to change, mature and find my feet.
The things that have happened to me are very personal and things others have done have made me feel extremely uncomfortable around them and with myself.
How am i supposed to solve this?!
Many times i have thought to myself that it would help just to get over it and put the thoughts behind me and move on, but i feel that makes me think about it more and actually thinking about things can make you feel better.
One of my previous options is to get as much attention from other people i can so i feel more wanted and needed, when i don't feel i'm appreciated i throw myself to people who i think appreciate me and want me even if it is only a temporary fix and will never make things any better.
My last option and most sensible in most peoples eyes is to identify why i'm not happy and uproot it all then start fresh and realize that i am better than what i thought. Hmmm?
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